Onwards and upwards!

I've actually remembered to come back to this blog! Obviously have far too much time on my hands!

This past month has been emotionally draining, whilst the "diet" and fitness regime went well within the first couple of weeks, it's proving harder in the last couple.
I've joined a local running club, which has brought me back to track running, which i have always liked compared to road running. Felt really proud and like me again after so long, until some shin splints came along to ruin my motivation! It's getting better, and wasn't so hard this week. But i was peed off with the world for a couple of days!
I'm trying to go to the gym everyday and i know that's a step in the right direction, but with 2 jobs, kids and and housework to maintain, it's not easy!
Hubby has been amazing throughout all of this, i've been an emotional wreck and he's helping me through and encouraging me all the way!  My immediate family have also been great, which makes it all worth while, especially when i can have a cry on mummys shoulder every now and again!

So i'm a year into a 2nd job that i've been doing. Its really hard but its very nice to work with these people. It's a handy helpers role, in which i go to a disabled person's house and help them with whatever they can't do. Their shopping, cleaning, sorting out paperwork, whatever. I can't call it a job really. But these people are so strong, they have faced things and come through the other side that you or i wouldn't know how to. One of them is nearly 100 years old. She's lost her son, her sister and her beloved, she's had falls every week, and had mini strokes.There's others that i go to in which they suffer from Post Traumatic Stress disorder, which is very hard to be around some weeks. But overall it's a job that feels like i'm helping someone. Even just a little bit.
Somehow, people is my career choice. It always has been. Just not sure on where that needs to be yet.

Boys are growing up too. They are getting along a little better, and my eldest is showing to be a very considerate young man.

I've managed to catch up with some friends this month, which was one of my missions! We are all so busy that it's hard to see each other. But we all seem to have one of those relationships as if we saw each other yesterday. I love that, and although i miss them i know they're not far away!

Time to lure the boys away from the death star battles and bring them back to reality!

Until next time!

So! A blog?! Give it a go, see if i can remember to update it!

Dinner is cooking, boys are playing lego star wars on the xbox, and the dog is sleeping! As tempting as it is to start the washing up and sort the washing, its much better to sit here at the computer and distract myself for just one more minute.
My eldest told me off today as i forgot that football started after school. That's happening a lot recently, either my son is too switched on to the events around him now, or i'm getting worse at this organisation malarkey! To be honest, never been good at that! As much as i try to pretend, organisation of my house doesn't go very well! I could blame it on my dyspraxia, and i'm sure it has a lot to do with it, but i also can't be arsed!

This week i have been to the gym 3 times and tried really well on my diet. I have struggled with my weight since having my youngest and never been in the right frame of mind. For the moment, i've got the right head space (although it's definatly not getting the housework done)
It's bloody hard work, especially trying to cook for 4 people, on a budget, and cutting down on my portions. I'm proud of myself, but i now it's only the beginning. I want to try, but i struggle to believe in myself a lot of the time! Confidence has always been a issue, but it's been worse over the last few years. Especially in groups of people, even if i've known them for years. I always get annoyed with myself for being cast as the quiet one, which i am most of the time, but other times i envy the confidence people have in themselves. Hopefully, confidence will come over time!

Had the day with my mum today, which was lovely. We went shopping to spend lots of money we didn't have.. on a tumble drier! How glamourous! Turns out there was none in stock, but in any case it was nice for mummy time!

Dinners burning, and the boys are now arguing about who gets to be R2-D2! Time to go!

Till this time next year perhaps?!